Unexpected Surprise!

I have found myself writing my thoughts down on occasion. I only write for myself, not for anyone else. I find it helps me understand my feelings. Whether they are good or bad, I always feel better. I have recently found out news that is quite shocking! I cannot believe this! I feel like I am in a nightmare!  I am having trouble figuring out if this nightmare is going to end good or bad.  Just moments ago Mr. Lorry from Tellson’s Bank, informed me that my father has been found and is alive!  After all of these years of being an “orphan” I have a father! Of course this is great news that my father is alive, but it is almost too good to be true..  Why didn’t he show up earlier in my life?  Where has he been for the past eighteen years?  I have so many questions that are running around in my head!  My immediate reaction to Mr. Lorry’s news was that he was taking me to see my father’s ghost.  It was just so sudden and out of the blue!  I was in shock and frightened.  I had no idea what to do or say to this life changing news, so I stayed silent with a cold white blank stare on my face.  I am still unsure of what to think about this news, but I have better come to my senses quickly.  

Mr. Lorry is taking me to see my father today!  I am so nervous and have butterflies in my stomach.  I have no idea what to expect and can only pray for the best.

Grateful For Time Spent Together!

Some time has passed and life has been great with my father!  He is finally slowly becoming his old self again, or “recalled back to life” as Mr. Lorry calls it.  Being in prison for eighteen years has certainly had a tremendous effect on my father.  He is very quiet and soft spoken.  I have also noticed that he is uncomfortable around people.  However, he is progressing very well and rarely has relapse episodes anymore.  He doesn’t’ like to talk much about his past, but I know when he is ready to talk about it, he will.  I myself am finally getting used to this new lifestyle as well.  It is different to have a father there for you and to have someone to care for and live with other than Miss Pross.  It is hard to remember what my life was like before my father was in it, but I would never ask for my old life back.  I love my new one and can’t believe I didn’t have this before.  My father and I have a lot of good bonding times and are always together.  We are almost inseparable!  I love him so much and always remind him that I do.   I heard this quote the other day and wanted to write down my thoughts about it.  “ Bad things happen so better things can fall together.” This quote made me realize that all the bad things that have happened to me in the past, such as not having a father or mother have helped prepare me for this specific point in my life.  I believe the bond between my father and I is stronger because of the separation we had throughout our lives!

How Can I Be So Blessed?

So much has happened.  My emotions are running high, I have to write down my thoughts before I explode.  One of the happiest days of my life was the day Charles Darnay proposed to me!!! I was so excited I could hardly stand it.  The wedding was scheduled to be fairly soon, and Charles and I had both agreed we wanted a small wedding.

We wanted only our closest friends and family to be there.  They are after all the ones who have always been there for us.  I didn’t really care for all the expensive things, just a simple wedding to the one I loved was perfectly fine for me!  We still live with my father of course, except Charles and I will have our own part of the house to ourselves. 
I don’t think I could bear to ever be away from my father for a long period or even short period of time.  Charles is very respectful and supportive of the close relationship my father and I have.  This makes me love him even more!   The wedding was everything I had hoped it would be!  It was like a dream come true!  Life was going great, in fact; better than expected.  I love my husband so much!  A small time later, I found out some rather big news… I was PREGNANT!!!

We found out I would be having  a baby girl.  I am so blessed right now.  I have the best life anyone could ever ask for.  Life with my new precious baby girl has been kind of crazy, but I love every second of it!  Charles and I decided to name our baby girl Lucie after me, however everyone calls her "Little Lucie".  She is a bundle of joy and can always manage to brighten up my day or make me smile.

Can This Really Be Happening???

Oh my goodness! Charles has been put into prison!  He secretly left to Paris a couple days ago to help an old friend in need.  While on his journey to meet and help his friend, he got stopped for being an immigrant!  He has done absolutely nothing wrong and this is his crime…being an IMMIGRANT!? That is the most rediculous thing I have ever heard.  After hearing about his current situation; father, little Lucie, Miss Pross, and myself left as soon as possible for Paris to go and rescue him.  Once we got there we went straight to the Tellson’s Bank in Paris. We knew Mr. Lorry was staying there.  He was very surprised to see us and hear of the terrible news.  Mr. Lorry has always been there for me and I knew he would know what to do.  As I am writing this down, Mr. Lorry and my father are discussing ideas of how to help my poor Charles.  I try to hold a strong and brave face on the outside for little Lucie and everyone else, but on the inside I am terrified of what is to come for my husband.  I want to break down and cry every second, but I am determined for no one to see my pain.  Whatever there is to come in the future, I will embrace the trials and struggles with a strong face.  No matter what may happen, I refuse to ever give up!    

Unforgettable Sacrifice

Sydney Carton will be the best and bravest man I will ever know and meet.  He is the reason I can continue to have my happily ever after with my husband and family.  As I have mentioned before, Charles was sentenced to death on the guillotine recently.  However, this ended up not happening!   Sydney’s love for me and determination to do something worthwhile in his life is the cause of this.  Sydney devised up a plan to switch places with Charles before his execution.Many people would accidentally get my husband and Sydney mixed up because they looked so much alike.  Sydney thought that this coincidence would be a perfect contribution to his plan.  Sydney had gotten black mail on a guard where my husband was being held.  Sydney used this against the guard who is known as John Barsad, and made him cooperate with his plan or he would tell everyone his secret.  Sydney had John Barsad take him to the cell where my husband was being held before the execution.  Once inside, Sydney quickly made my husband unconscious, and switched clothes with him.  The switch was successful and Sydney took Charles place at the guillotine.  As soon as my unconscious husband was in the carriage with Mr. Lorry, my little Lucie, and myself we immediately headed for home.

I cannot tell you how happy I was to have my husband back home safely. We thankfully made it back safely and can continue to live our lives together.  Sydney died an honorable man in my eyes and to him he finally fulfilled his purpose in life.  

Sydney was willing to risk his life for my happiness and his love for me!  I will forever be grateful for him and what he did for my husband and family! My daughter will now have the opportunity to grow up with her father. Sydney will always have a place in my heart.